a gem with a smile like a young Norma Jean*

its been almost 1 yearrrr

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 15:10:59 GMT

I confess that in 2006 I...

( ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
( x ) kissed someone new (jeffrey!)
( ) made-out for the first time
( x ) made-out in/on a car (IN)
( x ) kissed in the snow
( x ) kissed in the rain
( x ) fell in love
( ) fell in love with a fool
( X ) had your heart broken
( x ) broke someone else's heart
( x ) had a stalker (um, yes, you know who you are)
( x ) had a good relationship with someone (jeffff)
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant (Thatd be different...)
( ) had an abortion
(x ) gotten married (facebook officiated it!)
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( x ) kissed someone of the same sex (haaahaa)
( x ) dated someone you'll never forget (jeffreyyy)
( x ) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( x ) lost faith in love (for a couple months. yes.)
( ) kissed under mistletoe (not yettt)

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
(x ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( x ) met one teacher you really like
( x ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love (psychology yayayayay)
( ) failed a class
( x ) cut class (obviously.)
( x ) skipped school
( X ) got into a fight with a classmate (indirectly)
( x ) did something you were proud of
( x ) discovered a new talent (use your imagination see what you come up with ;) )
( x ) gave the teachers a reason to teach (haha intro to math)
( x ) proved yourself an idiot
( x ) embaressed yourself in front of the class ("michelle jarvis?"..."hi! umm... hi--ya?")
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
( x ) were involved in something you'll never forget (a runway show!)
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( x ) walked a mile (maybe i think on the treadmill)
( x ) listened to music you couldn't stand
( x ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
( x ) went to a sleepover
( x ) went to camp (Vacation Bible School..yaaa...)
( x ) threw a surprise party
( x ) laughed till you cried
( x ) laughed till you peed in your pants (juuuuust a little..)
( x ) flirted shamelessly (this is gay)
( ) visited a foreign country
( x ) visted a foreign state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(x ) lost something important to you
( x ) got a gift you adore (my tiffany ring <3 )
( x ) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
( ) dyed your hair
( ) someone close to you died
( X ) went to a party
( X ) drank alcohol
( x ) drank alcohol underage
( ) did (a) drug(s)
( x ) got drunk
( ) got arrested
( x ) read a great book
( x ) saw a great movie
(x ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x ) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x ) saw someone famous in person
( x ) did something you want to tell everyone
( ) Enjoyed this year overall.

my mind's unweaving, maybe it's best you leave me alone*

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 23:00:57 GMT

Put itunes on 'shuffle' and see what it comes up with for each question. Warning: May not actually make ANY sense.

1. How does the world see you?
"I'm in love with a stripper"...T-Pain feat. Mike Jones

haha "she's every mans dream, she's God's gift to Earth, women they love her too, that's what they call a woman's worth"...maybe people think im a stripper

2. Will I have a happy life?
"99 Red Balloons" -Nena

reminds me of Spirit Week. but I guess it means...i'll go somewhere...no idea where though? just float awayyy

3. What do my friends think of me?
"Chariot"-Gavin Degraw

her favorite is chocolate covered cherries, and seedless watermelon, nothing from the ground is good enough :) i guess..its a good thing

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
"Don't Let Me Be the Last To Know"- Britney Spears

"my friends say you're so into me..and that you need me desperately...they say you say we're 'so complete'...but i need to hear it straight from you, if you want me to believe it's true.." ---yes?

5. How can I make myself happy?
"Now It's Done" -Straylight Run

"holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last, waiting for better words, they'll never come, so dry your eyes, it's better..now it's done"

i can let go of someone, who i've been holding onto for a year now.

6. What should I do with my life?
"I Come From a Land Down Under" -Men At Work

i don't know it talks about all different countries, haha ...i guess I need to travel, meet new people, especially to Australia, a land down under?

7. Will I ever have children?
"here's to you" rascal flatts
they've got 3 in the front and 4 in the back of a civic >> having a whole litter i guess

8. What is some good advice for me?
"The Call" -Backstreet Boys

well..the moral of this song is not to lie to your boyfriend or girlfriend about going out..and cheating on them at the club...so...i probably should not do that.

9. How will I be remembered?
"Everytime We Touch"-Cascada

"i still hear your voice when you sleep next to me, i still feel your touch in my dreams, forgive me weakness, but i dont know why, without you it's hard to survive"---hopefully someone will miss me like that.

10. What's my signature dancing song?
"disco inferno" 50 cent
little mama show me how you move it, do your thing like there ain't nothin to it..shake, shake, shake that ass girl ;)

11. What's my current theme song?
"Hands Down"-Dashboard

hands down this is the best time i could ever remember---> I'm falling for someone :) so true

12. What do others think is my current theme song?
"Life Is a Highway"-Tom Petty
hahaha yesss i wanna ride it all night long

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
"You're So Damn Hot"-Ok Go

haha...so..a happy funeral?

14. What type of boy do I like?
"The Mixed Tape" -Jack's Mannequin

well it's about a guy making a mixed tape for the girl he misses...so, creative guys. who sing. and are thoughtful.

15. How's my love life?
"Why Should I Care?" Avril Lavigne....so true :)

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 03:20:23 GMT

I confess that in 2005 I...

( ) stayed single the whole year. (HAHA def notttt)
( ) got your first kiss
( x ) kissed someone new (ahhh..yaaa lol)
( ) made-out for the first time
( x ) made-out in/on a car (IN)
( X ) kissed in the snow
( x ) kissed in the rain
( X ) fell in love (well...technically fell BACK in love)
( ) fell in love with a fool
( X ) had your heart broken (courtesy of John Patrick Hauser, yes you are reading this, go on, take a bow)
( X ) broke someone else's heart (I LOVE COLLEGE!)
( x ) had a stalker (haha ya a few but the best one was a giant puerto rican in a huge fur coat at the club telling me im beautiful)
( x ) had a good relationship with someone (daniel...ma mere...michaela!)
( X ) questioned your sexual orientation (hahahaha yes, i am a lesbian. no just kiddingggg)
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant (Thatd be different...)
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( x ) kissed someone of the same sex (yaaa....i admit....)
( x ) dated someone you'll never forget (Anthony Sepe, you'll live forever in my end of high school memories. lol)
( x ) done something you've regretted (don't drink Peach Schnapps after you drink Sam Adams)
( ) lost your true love
( x ) lost faith in love (for a couple months. yes.)
( x ) kissed under mistletoe (my roommate and kate!! we even took pictures!! aww)

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( x ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love (psychology yayayayay)
( x ) failed a class (haha Economics but i dropped it just in time!!)
( x ) cut class (obviously.)
( x ) skipped school
( X ) got into a fight with a classmate (the whole ashley-gina-fiasco)
( x ) did something you were proud of
( x ) discovered a new talent (use your imagination see what you come up withhhh)
( x ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
( x ) proved yourself an idiot (everyday of my life)
( x ) embaressed yourself in front of the class (haha "soo we named our Test Marketing product after sexual connotations such as 'the big o' for the orange mango flavored drink..."...my professor goes..."what is the Big O?"...me ummmm....class HAHAHAHAHA...."
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( X ) got a lead in the school play (DEAR SAINT MARGARET...)
( ) made a varsity team
( x ) were involved in something you'll never forget ("We've got elegance, if you ain't got elegance..")
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

( ) painted a picture
( x ) wrote a poem
( x ) walked a mile (maybe i think on the treadmill)
( x ) listened to music you couldn't stand
( x ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
( x ) went to a sleepover
( x ) went to camp (Vacation Bible School..yaaa...)
( ) threw a surprise party
( x ) laughed till you cried
( x ) laughed till you peed in your pants (juuuuust a little..)
( x ) flirted shamelessly (this is gay)
( ) visited a foreign country
( x ) visted a foreign state
( x ) cooked a disasterous meal
( ) lost something important to you
( x ) got a gift you adore (my tiffany necklace!!! DAN'S LOVE!! hahaha wicked gayyy i knowww)
( x ) realized something new about yourself
( x ) went on a diet (for a day.)
( ) tried to gain weight
( ) dyed your hair
( ) someone close to you died
( X ) went to a party
( XXXXXXXXX ) drank alcohol (wooooooooooo :) :) :) im a TANK NOW GIRLS)
( x ) drank alcohol underage
( ) did (a) drug(s)
( x ) got drunk
( ) got arrested
( x ) read a great book
( x ) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( ) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw someone famous in person
( x ) did something you want to tell everyone
( x ) Enjoyed this year overall. 2005 i LOVE YOU

christmas is getting harder and harder.

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 15:30:45 GMT

Say goodnight, not goodbye
You will never leave my heart behind
LIke the path of a star
I'll be anywhere you are

In the spark that lies beneath the coals
In the secret place inside your sould
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight not goodbye

Don't you fear when you dream
Waking up is never what it seems
Like a jewl buried deep
Like a promise meant to keep

You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
Say goodnight not goodbye
You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight and not goodbye

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 15:01:25 GMT

The fire is burning
The room's all aglow
Outside the December wind blows
Away in the distance the carolers sing in the snow
Everybody's laughing
The world is celebrating
And everyone's so happy
Except for me tonight

Because I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you most at Christmas time

I gaze out the window
This cold winters' night
At all of the twinkling lights
Alone in the darkness
Remembering when you were mine
Everybody's smiling
The whole world is rejoicing
And everyone's embracing
Except for you and I

Baby I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm alright
But then I miss you, most at Christmas time

In the springtime those memories start to fade
With the April rain
Through the summer days
Till Autumn's leaves are gone
I get by without you
Till the snow begins to fall

And then I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm alright...
But then I miss you most at Christmas time

*mariah

fuckkkkk. fuck. fuck. fuck.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 22:36:35 GMT

MY LIFE: THE MUSICAL

Opening credits: "There She Goes" - Sixpence None the Richer

Waking up: "Back to Bed"- Jewel

Average day: “Michelle's Smiling" - UNCLE JESSE!

First date: “Kiss The Girl" - The Little Mermaid

Falling in love: “Oh It Is Love" - HellogoodBye

Love scene: hmm like...sex?... :) "Secret" by Maroon 5

Fight scene: “I'm Not Ok" -My Chemical Romance

Breaking up: “Soco Amaretto Lime" - Brand New..."Now it's Done" by Straylight Run

Getting back together: "Best of Me" - The Starting Line

Secret love: “Did You Ever Love Somebody" - Jessica Simpson

Life's okay: "Don't Worry Be Happy" :)

Mental breakdown: “Break Me" Jewel

Driving: “Tricky, Tricky" - Lou Bega

Learning a lesson: “Sway" - Michael Buble...because it would be a dance lesson

Deep thought: “Ordinary Day" - Vanessa Carlton

Flashback: “Konstantine" - SoCo

Partying: "I'm Really Hot" Missy Elliot

Happy dance: “My Humps" Black Eyed Peas

Regretting: “I Love You" - Sarah Mclachlan

Long night alone: "Me vs. Maradona vs. Elvis" - Brand New

Death scene: “Say Goodnight, Not Goodbye" - Dawson's Creek

Closing credits: “Leaving Town" - Dexter Freebish

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 23:21:55 GMT

10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: hot pink
Favorite Food: rickshaw chinese ^.^ i went this past saturday! Mr. Wong remembered us!
Favorite Band: i don't have one...but currently i'm in love with Dashboard & Brand New
Favorite Movie: Mean Girls, The Notebook, Moulin Rouge
Favorite Sport: dont knowww
Favorite Season: autumn.
Favorite Day Of the Week: Friday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Half Baked or Chocolate Therapy

9 Currents...
Current Mood: really, really sad trying to keep myself occupied
Current Taste: vaseline? i just put some on my lips lol
Current Clothes: AE pj pants and an abercrombie zip up thing jay bought me...
Current Computer: iBook
Current Finger/Toenail Color: au naturale
Current Time: 6: 16 pm
Current Surroundings: it looks like a bomb went off on my half of the dorm
Current Annoyance(s): everything, im in such a bad mood
Current Thought: I need to pee

8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: jeannine louise calia
First Screen Name: tommydiva55...hahaha
First Pet: Brittany the golden
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: luke fortuna (until last year i thought it was Fatuna)
First Music: Ace of Base!
First time you flew in a plane: to move to Texas when i was 4

7 Lasts
Last Cigarette: never
Last Drink: snapple iced tea
Last Car ride: the yellow cab last night from Octaine
Last Text Message: from Dan..."i can't wait to see you tonight!"
Last Movie Seen: Jarhead
Last Phone call: my mom
Last CD Played: Rejoyce by Jessie Simpson

6 Have You Ever....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: no but they became my best friend
Have You Ever Broken the Law: hahaha
Have You Ever Been Arrested: no but i almost did
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope
Have You Ever Been on TV: yeahhh the Bozo the Clown show..etc lol
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: mmm :)

5 Things....
You Did Last Night:
1. did a stage combat-esque workout before the club
2. got a visit from michaela
3. went to Octaine and danced
4. cried a little
5. took 2 shots

4 Places You've Been Last...
1. bathroom
2. kate's room
3. my room?
4. kennedy hall to see my advisor

3 People You Can Tell Anything...
1. my mother
2. gean
3. michaela

2 current loves...
1. hershey kisses
2. "He's Just Not Into You"

1 last song played...
"Alcohol" by Brad Paisley

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 18:40:02 GMT

I hate livejournal, I have no patience to sit and write beautiful passages about my life like some of my friends.

So for an update:

* i love my roommate, she's amazing
* i am still a shameless flirt, however in a serious relationship with a boy from home.
* i have a shopping PROBLEM. i've gone through $100 a week since i've been here. on random things like Febreze and clogs.
* i've become a bit of a barfly...at a local bar called Octaine. i dance all night, and sleep all morning.
* i get a lot of male attention when i wear my fuzzy Victorias Secret Ugg-boots. like a true bay view girl.
* sometimes i feel more mature than the girls here.
* i've narrowed my professions down to...clinical psychologist, pharmaceutical rep, and advertising exec.
* umm ive kissed a bunch of boys hereee...

i might be visiting Boston on Friday with my roommate.

so.. :)

0h p.s... i don't think i'm going to the reunionnn.

so liz wrote me this song...

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 04:31:57 GMT

htebazile7320 (11:24:53 PM):

I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad

bring you food from charlies (our school restaurant) when your period is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I’ll get your medicine when (EDITTTT lol RATED R)

help you through problems when girls are bitches

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

htebazile7320 (11:24:56 PM):

I’ll miss you

I’ll hang out with you

Give you my coat when you are cold

I’ll need you

I’ll feed you

Even let ya snuggle with the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our bathroom sink

Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink

I could be the roomate who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

haha ive been blessed with God's gift of roommates

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 19:32:21 GMT

am I in heaven here...
or am I in hell?
at the crossroad...I believe....

*sah mclachlan

hmmm.

saying good bye to certain people will be the hardest thing to do.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 15:02:39 GMT

"The Perfect Ending" by Straylight Run

Taken in context,
It's not a bad thing,
But when you start to pick it apart,
It gets so depressed,
It's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity,

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,

You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside,
But sometimes you loose sight,
Of what it was you were trying to find,
And it's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,
No perfect endings.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 12:58:27 GMT

Ten Things I Love: (besides the obvious family, friends, my dogs..etc.)

1. forehead kisses

2. laughing so hard your sides start to hurt and your eyes tear up

3. being onstage. preferably faking childbirth.

4. the bay view uniform. plus non-uniform knee s0cks :) harhar

5. pink & white roses.

6. babies. i <3 babies. haha not in a weird fat bastard way

7. silly, spontanaeous things.

8. Laguna Beach marathons. what can i say i'm addicted.

9. boy's cologne. especially Very Sexy for Him by Victoria's Secret...oh...my...Gosh.

10. seafood. recently i've developed a "thing" for it.

Nine Things I Miss:

1. Bay View. but this is so obvious.

2. being onstage...(im already copying myself)

3. hanging out with "the crew"...last summer was really fun

4. David the Gnome. that was such a good show!

5. swimming in the kiddie pool.

6. Miss Cunningham. wow.

7. slow dances...

8. Disney World. i don't think there is a happier place on earth.

9. being completely uninhibited and naturally beautiful...being 5 again.

Eight Good Friends:

1. michaela jean

2. gina marie

3. danielle marie

4. stefanie lynn

5. kathryn everett

6. daniel thomas

7. lauren ...sepe...(ohmygosh how do i forget your middle name baby)

8. john patrick

Seven Things I Wish I was doing:

1. sleepinggg...im hanging out in daddy's office in boston right now :-/ ew so boring

2. eating Chartwell's food..omg!

3. singing the medley with kav directing..(i cant believe i just admitted to missing that woman)

4. making love to Johnny Depp. or Brad Pitt. i'd settle for that.

5. laying on the beach of Key West with a 90 proof pina colada in my hand!! (oh yeah, ive done it.)

6. tanning. im too damn white.

7. getting a massage by some beautiful Swedish man in the Swiss Alps.

Six Things I’ve been Wanting to Do:

1. see my best friends from my lunch table a LITTLE more often

2. go to the beach. because i've only been twice this summer...with anthony. ughh

3. go blonde. no seriously. but i could never do it. i've just been wantingggg to.

4. redefine my personality. "discover myself".

5. finish my summer reading book (haaa haaa me too kait)

6. go on a cruise...some beautiful exotic cruise through the Mediterranean.

Five Things That Piss Me Off:

1. not being a tan-ass like all my gorgeous friends

2. boys. in general, just boys. they completely piss me off. all the time.

3. ignornant jerks who cut you off in the road

4. LYING**** (star, double check plus plus plus)....do not lie!!

5. rude, mean people. what's the point to life if you're gonna be mean and nasty all the time

Four Of My Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:

1. sarah mclachlan

2. the killers

3. the postal service

4. something corporate

Three Things I Really Want Bad:

1. to be brave and outgoing...and yes, liked...lol

2. to be happy...sooo happyy

3. lots of babies and a beautiful Adonis-looking husband

Two of My Nicknames:

1. Chelle

2. Moo

One Thing That I Dislike:

1. needles.

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 17:16:08 GMT

List 10 things in a day that give you a moment of joy, and tag five of your friends...
1. cute boys from Schroders that give me discounts on roast beef sandwiches
2. an IM from someone I haven't talked to in ages
3. britney spears...in the car
4. anything hot pink
5. a buffalo chicken calzone
6. a power nap
7. a phone call from someone speciallll
8. a facebook message from a cute Assumption boy
9. Laguna Beachhh
10. last but not least...the academy. driving by it almost every day.

tagged by: fallingsapphire
tagging: ifuseekatie, call_me_alf, amlette, diamond1444, fire_elektra

and all I want's to find an easy way to get out of our little heads..*

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 21:10:13 GMT

Wisdom tooth...yes, one tooth...out tomorrow. I'm absolutely petrified. But no, I'm not petrified of the actual operation. I'm petrified of the IV they use to knock me out. I've had a longstanding phobia of needles...a lot of you girls know this, either from my comments in AP psych class on it, or even the day the guy from the RI bloodbank came to talk about donating and I had to leave the room. It's not the blood, don't get me wrong, I'm not squeamish about blood. It's just the thought of a needle. A lot of you have also heard about my "traumatic experience" from when I was little, that caused my needle phobia. Well, Mrs. Nevola would be proud...I looked up the condition I have online. And all you psych girls will totallyyy know what this is talking about.

Associative

Extreme unexplained anxiety, difficulty breathing, sleeping and preoccupation with approaching procedure.

sub-consciously associated traumatic event. This includes fear transferred from parents or siblings who exhibit intense negative reactions to needle/medical procedures.

Emotional trauma (usually in childhood) associated with a medical/needle procedure

De-link needle procedures from the underlying associated fear.

Cognitive therapy, hypnosis, NLP, etc. Anti-anxiety medications may be helpful.

3 out of every 10 needle phobes

This is partially the type I have. the other type is:

Vaso-Vagal

Fainting, sweating, nausea, initially high blood pressure and heart rate, followed by a sudden precipitous plunge in blood pressure; patient tends to react passively

the thought, sight or feeling of needle-like objects (and sometimes blood also).

Inherited Reflex

Hamilton

Desensitization

Progressive exposure techniques; avoid visual exposure, provide anesthesia so patient cannot feel needle.

about half of all needle phobes

But yeah..idk..i'm just putting this out there so people can kind of understand my whole fear of needles. I'm not making it up...its a real deal. lol i'm so nervous about tomorrow..

the doctor is giving me valium for tonight though, and then when i go to the office tomorrow, they're giving me another dose of valium, and some laughing gas, before they put the IV drip in me. All this for one little tooth, I KNOW!...lol...i don't even care about the pain afterwards. Blahhh...

So basically this entry was a way for me to vent out my nerves about the whole thing tomorrow.

And to explain why my profile says i'm doing drugs tomorrow. haha

i miss you whores <33 so much!

facebook me.

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 18:46:43 GMT

hahaha. ok.

...since you've been gone, I can b r e a t h e for the first time*

Mon, 30 May 2005 00:19:06 GMT

This Memorial Day weekend has been amazinggg. And it's not even over yet...ohmygah. Well, it's thunderstorming outside, and I haven't updated this thing in forever so I guess I'll recap the past few days for everyonee...

Thursday

- went to school...had barely any classes because teachers are sick of teaching us, except in math, Swanson taught us something but I definitely didn't pay attention

- last day of Bay View cafeteria food...I think that was the hardest part lol. I didn't even bring my own money...I had to borrow from Ash Salvati. I'm turning into Michaelaaaa.

- opening night of Hamlet....so yeah, I wasn't Laertes anymore. It was the most bittersweet feeling in the world, but watching how amazing little Ashley Mccann(?) was at my stage combat sequences, and at memorizing the lines, I knew I had done the right thing in "stepping back gracefully" from the role. I just couldn't handle it at this point in my life...I wasn't prepared...physically OR emotionally. I was just incredibly happy that Mr. Coutu was understanding about the situation. It kinda hurt that some girls were talking badly about me because of it...they have no idea where I was coming from...buuut what're ya gonna do. So yeah anyways, Hamlet, was great. Grand grand grand as Kav would say. Emily was beautiful, like...I can't express how phenomenal she was at playing Hamlet. She astounds me, and it boggles my mind that she is only a year older than my brother, but yet such a mature, awesome person. I love her so much. Definitely the freshman I will miss next year. Stef and I did "yoga" in the back the entire show lol...we scared the younger girls...I even heard one of them say "I hope we're not like that when we're seniors!"...as Stef and I were doing a dramatic representation of Danielle's hamster getting stuck in a vacuum. (yeah D...we were still laughing about that lol)

Coutu made me cry..like a lot. I think I cried the entire ride home. He's been such a mentor to me since the 7th grade...with everything. Not even just theater but my life too. He welled up when I hugged him..."you're gonna make me cry, little one"...ohh geez =/.

I miss being onstage with Danielle already...we didn't want to move...

Friday- Last Day of Classes at Bay View

- So, my last day of school, and I didn't even come in on time. lol I rolled in at around 10...just in time for chamber class with everyone. We sang sappy senior songs and everybody cried. I got a pang in my stomach when we sang May the Road Rise. Can you believe it's over??

- seniors got dismissed at 12:45 for senior prom...but not meee =) alyssa, hilary and I all got out at 12:16 thanks to being in a junior physics class lol...hollerrr conceptual physics. soo yes senior prom!!!

Senior Prom (deserves its own title)

- spent the entiiire day obsessing over my tan-job that I had done on myself...eww..but it finally got straightened out lol wear sunscreen girls. burning makes you really ugly.

- went to get my hair done at this beautiful salon Jermane in Providence. I saw Natalia Sadanias (wooo..spellinggg?) there...she was cute. She was going to get a Nicole Kidman updo and I told her Nicole Kidman is my idol and that's a hot choice. Smiles all around =)

- umm went home to paint my nails, etc....my bestttt Gina came overr with some bling for me haha because i'm really poor lately and couldn't afford Claire's. We took lots of pictures and had such a good time getting ready. She almost cried I think. Not because I'm getting old or anything, but because she wanted to go to prom so badly. lol she helped me mix a little something-something for myself...it had been sitting in my underwear drawer for 3 months though so it was sooo strong. (this is an allusion to what happened after prom lol)

- Anthony, the hot date, showed up around 5:15 and it was just incredible from there. We matched pretty perfectly if I must say...and the lavender roses he gave me also matched in a too-good-to-be-true kinda way. We took a gazillion pictures at my house, and then we were off to Lau's house!! I think I was wayy too excited lol..Ant seemed a little nervous. We were kinda late to Lau's..but that's alright because the married couple was wayyy laterrr than we were. =)P Took pictures at Lau's, and my awesome friends looked..awesome. Kate's dress was absolutely gorgeous. Danielle's silk dress made me want to make out with her. Stef's hair was the best "sex hair" lol that I had ever seen. Lau was absolutely radiaaating next to Jah...they're so cute. omgg..all of them...everyone..so pretty.

- We took the limo to prom..haha 14 people squished into a 12-seater was...cozy.

- PROM!! ahh!! so incredible!!...The teachers had their "breathalizer receiving line" all set up and I was so excited to see them there...especiallyyy Mrs. Nevola, my psych teacher. I love her so much. Umm...the dance floor was definitelyyy larger than the one for junior prom, so props to whoever chose the Westin. and yea...prom was just...b e a u t i f u l. I looked around at all these girls I had known all my life and I couldn't believe that this was the last night we'd all be dancing together. So, I danced my heart out...barely sat down. It was Anthony's last prom too, since he opted not to go to his, and we had so much fun together. The music was kinda disappointing..but thats okay. We made the best of it. Congrats to Jackie Kazarian who got prom queen =) she totally deserved it.

- prom ended..I think anthony basically had to carry me off the dance floor. I didn't want to walk away. I did though, eventually. And we took the limo back to Lau's house..and then me and Anthony, Lau & Jah, Kay & Kyle, hung out at Jah's house. I got prettyyyy tipsy off one glass of that peroxide-like stuff that Gina mixed for me lol I was giggling at absolutely everrrything Anthony said to me. It was cute though, he got kinda blasted himself.

- Went back to Anthony's house after Jah's...and it was really the best ending to a night. Me and Ant got to spoon with each other lol (thats totally not sexual incase a parent happens to read this. or Sister Viola.) ...anddd me and Micheala crashed upstairs while Ant and Kyle slept downstairs. I got to sleep in his bed =) woo.

- So all in all...prom was the fairytale experience I had been hoping for since grade 9. I got over the fact that I wasn't there with who I thought I would end up at prom with...and you know something? I don't think I could've had such an amazinggg time with anyone else besides Anthony. He's just a really cool guy. =) Big crush.

Saturday

-woke up at the ass-crack of dawn for Michaela because she had to get ready for a recital at 9:00. her and Kyle left after breakfast and then it was me and Ant for the day

- we chilled out most of the day...watched "A Cinderella Story" with Chad Michael Murray and Hilary Duff. haha well, I watched it, and he napped. we took showers and got Starbucks. then later on we headed back to the woodland area of Rehoboth so I could get fixed up. We ended up going to Colt State Park for a nap lol...another one. It was funny but there were little red bugs crawling onto the blanket...he tried telling me that they're called "red bugs of death" and that they burrow under your skin for a day "to chill" and then they leave. haha i think i almost believed him too. buut yeah i fell asleep..lol..we were laying right on the grass by the water, and it was adorable. took some pictures.

- we hung out at my house for a little while but got kinda bored....sooo we went to the Carousel in riverside =) omgg I'm obsessed with the carousel. it was soo much fun...i felt five years old again. we went on three times...lol...it was just perfect.

- the night ended back at my house...we watched The Grudge...veryy scary movie. good date movie though. gahh i like him =) can you totally tell? im so pathetic.

buut yeah...it's Sunday...not much has gone down today. I worked 7-1:00 and then i came home and i've been napping all day. haha i feel like such a scrub for writing such a long entry but i hope you enjoy. lol it took awhile.

beer through the nose on an inside joke

i love you guys...so much...<3

haha so yeah pretty accurate almosttt

Sun, 29 May 2005 22:53:26 GMT

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Jeannine Calia is your soulmate.

You truly love Micheala Anderson.

You consider Amy Mckenna your true friend.

You know that Gina Rupolo is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Kate Druckman for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Danielle Grace is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Stef Thetonia is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Jay is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Jay changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Lauren Sepe is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Lauren Sepe has a hidden internet romance.

I love how it says Jay changes lovers faster than underwear lol

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

Mon, 16 May 2005 02:33:23 GMT

Auntie Dee Dee's Rules of Life, Learned in Key West:

1. The best revenge is living well.

2. If a band member invites you and your friends to get up on stage, do NOT do it. It's tacky, out of style, and makes you look class less.

Best way to decline the band member's gracious invitation: Laugh, smile your best smile, and say, "No! We're having more fun watching YOU!"...it works.

3. In Florida, when they have an item on the menu called, "Pelican Wings"....do NOT ask the waitor if it's actual pelican. He will laugh at you.

4. When trying to pass off a fake i.d... don't look the bouncer in the eye...DO sing along shamelessly to the song that is blaring in the background as he checks your i.d., and laugh flirtatiously....

5. If the bouncer questions your i.d, do NOT sound defensive...sound confident, and bitchy. Be pissed. "I AM 26 years old, 5'7", with naturally blonde hair....are you calling me a liar?"

6. If you show belly, don't show too much leg. And vice versa. Same goes for cleavage. Pick one, and flaunt it.

7. If a guy...or a band member...winks or smiles at you...don't wave. It looks dumb. Just smile back, and get back to what you were doing. If they want you, they can come to you. You don't have to put on a show. And they WILL come to you. Trust me.

8. Download the "Sooo Kinky" song. Auntie Dee Dee says so.

9. Be a wingman for your friends. Don't leave them for 3 songs in a row to dance with Mr. Hott Shit while they're stuck listening to an ugly balding spanish guy talk about his love life problems. Bail her out first. Then go mack.

10. Don't laugh at a state trooper when he is pulls you over for 90 in a 65.

Always come up with a good excuse before he leaves your window the first time. Once he writes the ticket, you're done for. If all is lost, cry. Cry HARD. It worked for Dee Dee, it can work for you. :)

...could you look me in the face or have I been replaced?

Fri, 06 May 2005 02:10:28 GMT

I'm okay....

I hate writing in this thing.

I'm smiling, see, look, beautiful, just like allll my friends. We're all so happy, and so in love. Wait. no i'm not, scratch that....

They're all so in love.

But it's okay, I love being single...i've got guys lined up...

So yeah, I gave in a little, and checked his name. And then I checked his away message.

It kind of hurts...no actually...no...it hurts a lottt.

But i am totally okayyy...definitely not depressed...because US GIRLS dont get depressed!! it's senior year!! yess!!

Oh my God. slkdjfjghf. it hurts.

we've got elegance, we've got built-in elegance...*

Sun, 01 May 2005 21:32:26 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Michelle Lee
Birthday:	August 31
Birthplace:	Providence, RI
Current Location:	Rehoboth, MA
Eye Color:	ok i'm making this simple & saying hazel...my eyes are 2 different colors
Hair Color:	mediumm brunette
Height:	5'4 & 1/4
Right Handed or Left Handed:	rightie
Your Heritage:	French-Canadian/French-French/Italian/Native American
The Shoes You Wore Today:	pink & lime green kangaROOs
Your Weakness:	a boy with pretty eyes...very sensitive & painfully honest
Your Fears:	needles...loving someone with no holds barred
Your Perfect Pizza:	mmm cheesy crust, a little ham & pineapple
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	become my own person, without the help of a male counterpart
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"ughhh" or "lol"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	gotta check my text messages!!...i'm obsessed
Your Best Physical Feature:	i'm not sure, my stomach or my cheeks
Your Bedtime:	11:00 ish
Your Most Missed Memory:	let's not go there, shall we
Pepsi or Coke:	Coca Cola
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	group dates are usually more fun, but I like singles dates too
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate for food...vanilla for scent
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino i guess but i don't like either
Do you Smoke:	never
Do you Swear:	sometimes =)
Do you Sing:	always
Do you Shower Daily:	every otherrr
Have you Been in Love:	yes and i regret it.
Do you want to go to College:	Assumption 09' baby!
Do you want to get Married:	of course, once I have my own life set
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yeahh
Do you think you are Attractive:	wickeddd ;)P
Are you a Health Freak:	no def not
Do you get along with your Parents:	most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms:	kinda scary, very seductive though
Do you play an Instrument:	nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yahh lol last night
In the past month have you Smoked:	nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yahh!!
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	plenty of times
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no, unfortunately
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yuppp last night
In the past month have you been on Stage:	LAST NIGHT!! lol...aww...cab...
In the past month have you been Dumped:	haha no per se, I dumped HIS ass.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope maybe a make up thing though =)
Ever been Drunk:	yah
Ever been called a Tease:	hahaha yesss
Ever been Beaten up:	nope
Ever Shoplifted:	lol no
How do you want to Die:	making looove to my gorgeous husband
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a movie star. to be frank.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Italy
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	light eyes are my favorite.
Favourite Hair Color:	brunettes
Short or Long Hair:	shorter
Height:	taller than me...like 6' is nice
Weight:	no idea? not fat. not too skinny.
Best Clothing Style:	i like everything...eclectic is my fave, nothing too tight or homosexual though, AHEM
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none. 0=)
Number of CDs I own:	wayy too many
Number of Piercings:	just ears
Number of Tattoos:	none yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Jay Hauser..let's see...one.
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Sat, 30 Apr 2005 16:37:29 GMT

we were together for so long....the next day he had someone new.

i was his world one day, and he woke up the next and it's as if i never existed.

how can you love a person for such a long period of time...share everything with them...and just wake up not loving them anymore?

i broke up with him.

why am i the one hurting?

i want closure. i want to talk about it. he doesn't want either.

he wants the girl who "begins with a C".

it's not chelle.

i want my best friend back. pronto.

my friends know what's best though..

even if it hurts a lot.

...as i go, remember all the simple things you know*

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 22:25:23 GMT

...and I still hope that you will miss me when i'm gone. -All American Rejects

Soo I haven't written for awhile. Everything has been amazing and beautiful for the past couple of months. It's had it's high's and low's, but altogether, I have never been so busy and independent-feeling in my life. Sometime in March, me and Jay said our good byes, if I had a box to check off it would be under "irreconcilable differences" for lack of a better term. I miss him, yeah. I loved him, yup. He was my best friend for over a year, mhmm. But now, I look at it this way...it was just stage in my life...and it helped me become who I am now. I'm loving who I am right now...I have a couple "admirers", if you will ;-)....and the agonyy of the entire break up is over. I get to be myself and not "michelle and jay"...it's like...the monologue Angela did in drama festival...about growing fierce and becoming an independent woman, lol. But yahhh....

It's Cabaret time now. Drama Festival was amazingggg...I met a ton of new people, our hosts were especially awesome. We did the whole "get up onstage and dance your ass off" thing at the end of the weekend, which was pheeeenomeenalll.....I danced away my troubles with a well-known Cranston West boy who thought I was cute. lol, so we're talking now. We got alternate in the competition, which was a pleasant surprise, I don't think we would've been too thrilled if we won....granted, we wanted to just to say we won...but realistically, doing the New Englands during Cabaret hell week would've been...well..double hell. hahhh i'm soo rambling right now, because it's 87 degrees outside, and i've been rehearsing all day! Tonight i'm going to the driving range with John Wiluszzz....as long as it doesn't rain. He's a fun kid. =) hmm. I'm all over the place with this summary buut yeaaa...everything in life is good right now. I haven't started memorizing for Hamlet which is at the end of May (shit) and i'm too excited to go to Key West in the middle of May to even think about it. Wow...May......this year flew by....

It's hitting me this week...

A - age you got your first kiss: 14
B - band listening to right now: All American Rejects
C - crush: wellll....like I said, a few "admirers"
D - dad's name: Larryy
E - easiest person to talk to: Geanerr....my boss at work, Jen....my mom....Mckay
F - favorite bands at the moment: Sarah Mclachlan, SoCo, Dashboard, Maroon 5
G - Gummi bears or gummi worms: gummi bears
H - hometown: Rehoboth
I - instruments: guitar is hot
K - kids: i want lots of them, just not for a longg time
L - longest car ride ever: noo idea
M - mom's name: Lisaa
N - nicknames: Chelle, Chelles, Moo, "Miss Jah-vish", Chelleyy
P - phobia[s]: needles, big time & heights & whales
Q - favorite quote: i have so many. but... "Life isn't about the number of breaths you take, it's about the moments that take your breath away"
R - reason to smile: after rehearsal i treated myself to ice cream, and i got to wear my first skirt of the season!!
S - song you sang last: "Dancing"
T - time you woke up [today]: 7:00
U - unknown fact about me: when i was little i lived in Texas for half a year
V - vegetable you hate: squashh
W - worst habit(s): crying, over-analyzing, nervous laugh
X - x-rays you've had: hand....ankle....chest
Y - yummy food: chinese ^.^ Rickshaw, babyy
Z - zodiac sign: Virgo. the virginnn =)P

let's get creative :)P

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 22:34:31 GMT

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One compliment.
One "love" note.
Lyrics to a song.
How long we've been friends.
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Mon, 17 Jan 2005 13:48:52 GMT

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety!
Created by -ambiguous and taken 37413 times on bzoink!
What is your favorite..
gum	Orbit...(stef says I remind her of the annoying british blonde lady in the commercial?)
restaurant	ooh I have many. Fire & Ice...some really nice restaurant on the Hill i forget...and Cheesecake Factory
drink	strawberry pina colada
season	summer, duh
type of weather	spring-y...very sunny, cool outside...thunder storm at night
emotion	passion
thing to do on a half day	idk what that means really but...get my nails done
late-night activity	trying to get into night clubs with my best friends (yay kate & d lol)...or hanging out with jay-son
sport	baseball. i guess. i don't know
city	i haven't been to enough cities to choose
store	Express and A&F
When was the last time you..
cried	Friday night when my cell phone was confiscated
played a sport	pickle ball in gym
laughed	last night with Jay
hugged someone	mm Jay again
kissed someone	Jay
felt depressed	last night. cause he's going back to URI today
felt elated	this morning when I saw my mom making waffles
felt overworked	today. I've worked every friggin day this weekend. Friday Sat Sun and today
faked sick	well friday my mom called me in sick and i wasn't but she was in on it
lied	i don't remember...i don't tell lies big enough to remember
What was the last..
word you said	fine
thing you ate	waffles and a blue berry muffin
song you listened to	"Dare You to Move", Switchfoot
thing you drank	orange juice
place you went to	work yesterday at the bakery
movie you saw	Meet the Fockers, haha
movie you rented	Troy soo good
concert you attended	Aerosmith this summer w/ the crew
Who was the last person you..
hugged	jay
cried over	if my cell phone was a person..
kissed	jay
danced with	my girls + jay
shared a secret with	my mom
had a sleepover with	the academy + all our dates from crystal
called	jay probably
went to a movie with	jay..haha this is getting pathetic
saw	my mom, dad, brother, and keith's friend todd
were angry with	my dad for taking my phone!
couldn't take your eyes off of	jayy.
obsessed over	brad pitt in Troy...LET me tell YOU
Have you ever..
danced in the rain	ahh yup
kissed someone	oh please
done drugs	no
drank alcohol	yes
slept around	no lol
partied 'til the sun came up	sure at feehan
had a movie marathon	yeah
gone too far on a dare	no i don't ever pick dare
spun until you were immensely dizzy	who hasn't? I miss sit & spins.
taken a survey quite like this before	nope
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Sat, 08 Jan 2005 18:50:04 GMT

Crystal Ball 2005 tonight at Rhodes...

who's so excited? : ) just got home from spray tanning with all my PinKs and getting my hair done...so now i'm ready to rock.

i have kissed someone(s)...
on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
related to me. --> non-sexually of course
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair. ( jon )
with curly hair. ( dan )
with blonde hair & green eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair. ( jay <3 )
smaller/shorter than me
bigger/taller than me. (always)
with a lip ring. --> chin ring count?!
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail. haha
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another country besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus. (all of the above.)
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.

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Your haiku:	i am popular haha even though me and jay said our good byes
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